So exhausted and trying to figure out things

Im stuck at a crossroads...I dont think anyone reads this and dont knoe of I should keep blogging..I have so much in my mind and life is very crazy right.now..it's overwhelming with doctors appts Dentist appts..therapy starting soon..so much
.......do I keep blogging? Im also thinking very hard about quitting Facebook..alot of people are and there's just to much distraction right now

A must see new species discovered!

Watch "Cascade Creature" on YouTube

This is crazy! All for publicity!

So im watching President Obama addressing the nation and the news is making a huge deal that this is the first time in history that a US president has spoken from the "battlefield" its so sad this president is more like a hip hop artist or movie star than a president.....he's more interested in publicity than being a president....this is just my view and I apologize in advance if I offended anyone I don't mean to....however it is America and thabk God we have free speech still,just my thought on this

So much has happened since I last blogged!

Hello to my blogy blog friends!

Wow....I dont even know where to begin because so much has happened since I last wrote,I am extremely happy I finally got a new laptop because as many of you know we had a full can of soda spill on our other one so now I am to do so much more.

Being at home everyday constantly you realize so much about the world and things you may or may not have taken for granted before,I am so extremely greatful for all of my wonderful friends they are helping me get through all of this with more peace of mind than going through ot alone!
Our friend Aaron came over this last weekend and mowed our lawn for us and our friend Tim came over and fixed our swing set so now not only Joey and Lily can play but the other big bunch of kids also!
This weekend I was able to go to church again and have some lunch with leann and the kids and I may have over did it a tad this weekend but it was worth it,I have realized so much with this surgery and I am thanking God more and more everyday I had it.

You until this point from surgery I have been in constant chronic pain,although it has been letting up a tad here and there,well Monday late afternoon Joey had got home from school and was really excited because we where going to watch a movie as a family in my room and mommy was going to cook a yummy dinner,so Joey got all his chores done and I said "lets go outside and wait for mommy to get home! So I grabbed my walker and we got onto the porch and had Joey grab me a pillow to sit on so I would be more comfortable.

He put the pillow on the porch swing and me trying to be cautious asked Joey "my son" to help hold my Walker while I sat down,as.I sat down I instantly slipped off the pillow because I did not realize I was wearing basketball swooshy type shorts and not thinking about the material on the pillow was slick also....I started to fall and it was like slow motion,I grabbed the chain of the swing and as I did my hand slipped and I fell on my left side pretty hard,and instantly my son started screaming oh no daddy oh no are you ok!?!?! Help help help my dad fell,screaming at the top of his lungs,I said buddy it's ok mommy will be home in a few minutes,so we waited and about 5 minutes later LeAnn showed up yelling "oh no oh no oh no! I said I think im ok just in pain,she said there is no way I can pick you up,so we called 911 and they showed up and put a backboard underneath me and 2 firefighters on each side of me and one at my feet they tilted onto my feet in one big swoop,they asked me a bunch of questions because when the swing had flipped around it hit me in the head and my back. So I took a few steps and was in pain but thought I was ok then a minute later I started having really severe pain in my left leg,so they put me into the ambulance and took me to the Hospital for xrays and pain meds,I got out about about 5 hours later and today 2 days later I feel like I got hit my a car but amazingly I feel OK! Today its supposed to be 90 degrees here so right now I think we're going to nap and then lunch and play outside Outback after that! Today is going to be an awesome day! and

An amazing Sunday morning/afternoon

Today is a very blessed day indeed! In front of God,My Pastor and some friends from mens group at church also my wife LeAnn and my kids Joey & Lily I made a commitment and Resolution to everyone today..April 15,2012 @12:22pm it is from the Christian movie COURAGEOUS and reads...          
       -THE RESOLUTION-

I DO solemnly resolve before God to take full responsibility for myself,my wife,and my children.
I WILL love them,protect them,serve them,and teach them the word of God as the spiritual leader of my home.

I WILL be faithful to my wife,to love and honor her,and be willing to lay down my life for her as Jesus Christ did for me.

I WILL bless my children and teach them to love God with all of their heart,all of their minds,and all of their strength.

I WILL train them to honor authority and live responsibly.

I WILL confront evil,pursue justice,and love mercy.

I WILL pray for others and treat them with kindness,respect,and compassion.

I WILL work diligently to provide for the needs of my family.

I WILL forgive those who have wronged me,and reconcile with those I have wronged.

I WILL learn from my mistakes,repent for my sins,and walk with integrity as a man answerable to God.

I WILL seek to honor God,be faithful to His church,obey His word,and do His will.

I WILL courageously work with the strength God provides to fulfill this resolution for the rest of my life and for His glory.

AND IT WAS SIGNED AND DATED BY MYSELF,MY SON JOEY AND WIFE LEANN!

it reads at the bottom....
AS FOR ME AND MY HOUSE,WE WILL SERVE THE LORD.
        JOSHUA 24:15

Another trip out....in pain...but worth it!

Took a trip out with my wife LeAnn my daughter Lily and our friend Delia and her mom Ardith to Mazatlan Mexican restaurant! I was in a lot of pain however I knew that I needed to get out of the house for a bit....I had the Seafood Acupulco Burrito it is amazing,there is crab,prawns,scallops and octopus on it and it s very tasty! We where there for about an hour and by that time I was feeling pretty bad so we headed home and Lily and I took a nap......it is so great to be a daddy and it helps so much to know im loved alot even when the pain is unbearable.

A very long day for me,to say the least!

Today started out at 6:30am and I knew it was going to be a long day,just that feeling that happens sometimes,I laid here in bed waiting for LeAnn to come downstairs and help me out and when she did come down I took a quick shower brushed my teeth and got ready fairly quick.

I laid back down to relax until we left about 9:10am and after hitting some unexpected traffic on O st. And a very funny interesting van with a portable air conditioner hanging out of the back window only being held in my surgical tap and having a OH WOW moment..."see picture I took of the van" we made it to my family doctor just in time for my 9:30 appointment and after a good 25 minutes about talking to the doctor about how I was doing and feeling we left his office and then went right down the elevator to my Nephrology doctor whom I have not seen since August. I got my blood drawn for labs and my urine and I will know more results tomorrow however I think everything is going ok other than normal kidney issues im having.

LeAnn and I then walked out of the doctors office into a extreme downpour which by the way was hilarious to see me with my walker trying to hurry and hobble fast to get to the van which by the way was NOT successful hhahhahaha,so after drying off a little in the van we both realized we where starving and since my pain was slightly elevated however under control we decided to go and use a gift certificate at Brewskys which has great food and reasonable pricing,we had not gone out since my back surgery on January 18,2012 so yes even though when we left the pain wad terrible it was very worth it.

And finally when all wad said and done we got home at 1:30pm and the rest of the day I took it easy and relaxed and we watched this new show on tv called awake,it was a good interesting show,so after a very very long day for me its off to what I hope and pray will be a good nights rest,I am really loving this new blog its really making me feel great I can write about my day and feelings and things I am going through and hopefully help someone else out there, Good night everyone ;-) 
Being Big daddy

My Grandmas recipe for tasty homemade vanilla extract

So excited I just got done starting my homemade Vanilla extract for  baking from my Grandmas recipe It is fairly simple and very tasty!! Start with one package of 4-6 Inch Vanilla Beans,These ones you can actually purchase on Ebay for about 5.50 with FREE shipping! For this I started with 20 out of the 25 beans bought as shown just take out 20 of them and hold all of them in your hand and start cutting them about quarter inch pieces or smaller cut at an angle and put all of the pieces into 1 750ml of Vodka,

Now I was told by my grandma DO NOT use the really cheap stuff,Use a OK brand like UV or Smirnoff can be bought for about 8.99 at walmart once all of the beans are inside the botttle almost instant it will start to turn yellow,After that take 1 tablespoon of white or raw sugar and put into bottle now Is the waiting game..

Keep bottle in dark cool place out of any light,It will be ready in about 5 weeks..HOWEVER, It is much better if you let it sit for about 4-6 months...Once a week or so give the bottle a nice hard shake and return to cool dark place...After the vanilla has sat long enough strain through a cheesecloth or coffee filters and discard the vanilla beans,Use as you would normal vanilla extract from the store....

Although I will say this will be 100% better than anything you will find at the store and the entire price around 16.00 or so will be so much more less than what you would pay,And the best part you know exactly what is in it!

 Also if you pick up some apothocary glass bottles with corks or any type of lid at Bed bath and beyond you can give this vanilla extract for presents to friends and family....If you have any questions feel free to ask....Thank you for looking!

A New Begining and a New world!

Hello everyone!

This is my brand new BLOG,I have wanted to start one for quite a while and never took the time to.....And as everyone knows I have had so much time in the last few years to start many projects,however up until now I have been waiting for that ah ha moment and I this morning I had it!

I am so extremely excited to start this...my wife LeAnn has been telling me to start a blog for a while, SO HERE WE GO!

                                            My Story

My name is Joshua I go by a few different names Josh,Big foot,Daddy,Chicken and Bubba...I was born October 24,1980 In Lancaster,California...I have 3 brothers and 1 sister,I was raised in California until the age of 8 when I moved to Federal Way Washington I grew up there until the age of 15 then moved to Tacoma and after a fun stint with well over my 15 minutes of fame because of my big size 23 shoes I moved to Colorado Springs after high School and met my now wife LeAnn on January 1,2000,We where very fortunate God blessed us with a beautiful home June 8,2004 and our son Joey August of 2004,Then we where blessed with our daughter Lily November of 2008.

Then April 9,2009 I was laid off work due to severe back pain,Since then I have not been able to work and went through a back surgery in April 2010 to repair a herniated L4L5 disc and then a little over 2 months ago on January 18,2012 I went through a major back surgery and had a double spinal bone fusion for my L3L4 and my L4L5 as of now it has been 3 years of severe pain a lot of bills and a lot of great friends and family helping us along the way through all of the stress and pain .

This blog will be a look in on the pain struggle and overcoming the obstacles I have and will face in the future with physical therapy not even set yet however praying for early June.I will write about the severe pain the trials of my life the things I am learning to overcome and how God has giving me the strength to get through all of the days so far and even more strength for the days ahead!

Thank you to all of the friends and family making my journey a little easier to get through.